I've realized that ever since that time in 9th grade when everyone was critizing me for expressing my feelings I havent written them in here since. Perhaps it was because I just wanted them to shut up and began to realize that no one would understand. People are too absorbed in their own world that they dont realize that other people can feel bad about themselves even if they have a better life than you do. People are to selfish to realize this. And I know that my life is better than somepeoples, but then, it was worse than what my life was. I was depressed. I was lonely. It felt like I had nobody. Everyone has to feel that way sometimes. What I dont understand is...the people who probably felt the exact same way at present were the ones telling me I was all bullshit. Well, guess what, you were all bullshit. Even if you felt the same, it gives you no right to say harsh things to other people. To those who made me conceal everything which made a hell all the way to my toes...fuck you. I hate you. That's right. I HATE you. Actually, no I dont. To some...I wish it would've ended differently... oh well, too bad, cant change the past. life will kick you in the ass anyway Lovingly yours, S - fucking - willy | 
